“Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” Joel 2:12 NIV Our hearts are easily broken as we walk this journey called Life. We experience heartaches through the lose of a loved one to death or the lose of a relationship through a misunderstanding or a divorce. …
In the depths of my addiction to pornography, I saw myself as a pervert. Webster' 1828 Dictionary defines pervert as a verb as follows: Pervert', verb transitive [Latin perverto; per and verto, to turn.] 1. To turn from truth, propriety, or from its proper purpose; to distort from its true use or end; as, to …
God works in amazing ways! The more and more I learn to listen for His messages, the more I hear from Him. And lately, He has been speaking loud and clear. No, I don't hear an audible voice around me. Instead I pay attention in my circumstances and what others say to me through conversations, …
Pornography affects the human brain in a variety of ways. The brain is constantly rewiring itself as it learns and grows. It used to be thought that after childhood the brain stoped changing, but recent research is showing that even as aging adults, the brain has the ability to change. Like a habit can be …
As a young adult, I continued to lack confidence in myself and was shy. I would not speak up for myself or when there was opportunity to share about Jesus and His love for all. In my first job as a Medical Technologist, I began to gain confidence in myself at work, realizing as I …
This week I had the privilege and honor of being interviewed by Shannon Ethridge, best-selling author and speaker (www.shannonethridge.com) about my participation in her online course, B.L.A.S.T. Mentoring (blastmentoring.com). I was able to share my vision of writing a book concerning my journey in recovery from my addictions and speaking on a national level about …
Early on in my recovery God encouraged me to give my testimony for the very first time to a group of people being trained to facilitate small group discussions in a recovery ministry. The idea of doing so petrified me. God had his work cut out for him as I was very resistant and full …
In December 2004, I decided to attend a five-day intensive workshop for women who struggled with sexual addictions. One of the group activities I was a part of involved figuring out how to get out of a maze while blindfolded. Well, I am all about solving puzzles and was up to the challenge, or so …
When I was deep into my addictions, I was very fearful and resistant to the idea of being vulnerable. I was all about keeping my secrets and building a wall of protection around me so no one could hurt me or know that I was insecure and flawed. I was all about being perfect in …
My addiction to pornography and self gratification carried an immense amount of shame with it. I kept it secret, fearing I would be embarrassed, rejected, humiliated, and ridiculed for who I was. You see, I saw myself as a pervert; there was something really wrong with me because I was unable to be a "good …
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