“Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” Joel 2:12 NIV Our hearts are easily broken as we walk this journey called Life. We experience heartaches through the lose of a loved one to death or the lose of a relationship through a misunderstanding or a divorce. …
In the depths of my addiction to pornography, I saw myself as a pervert. Webster' 1828 Dictionary defines pervert as a verb as follows: Pervert', verb transitive [Latin perverto; per and verto, to turn.] 1. To turn from truth, propriety, or from its proper purpose; to distort from its true use or end; as, to …
As a young adult, I continued to lack confidence in myself and was shy. I would not speak up for myself or when there was opportunity to share about Jesus and His love for all. In my first job as a Medical Technologist, I began to gain confidence in myself at work, realizing as I …
Early on in my recovery God encouraged me to give my testimony for the very first time to a group of people being trained to facilitate small group discussions in a recovery ministry. The idea of doing so petrified me. God had his work cut out for him as I was very resistant and full …
In December 2004, I decided to attend a five-day intensive workshop for women who struggled with sexual addictions. One of the group activities I was a part of involved figuring out how to get out of a maze while blindfolded. Well, I am all about solving puzzles and was up to the challenge, or so …
When I was deep into my addictions, I was very fearful and resistant to the idea of being vulnerable. I was all about keeping my secrets and building a wall of protection around me so no one could hurt me or know that I was insecure and flawed. I was all about being perfect in …
My addiction to pornography and self gratification carried an immense amount of shame with it. I kept it secret, fearing I would be embarrassed, rejected, humiliated, and ridiculed for who I was. You see, I saw myself as a pervert; there was something really wrong with me because I was unable to be a "good …
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